I took an unannounced break from blogging for about 6 months. In those months, I struggled with releasing new material simply because I did not think I was good enough. My doubts inevitably grew to laziness. I felt like my blog page did not stand out enough. I focused less on the context and more on the visual side of things. Who would have thought that doubt will literally stop me in my tracks. I was not satisfied with the fruit of my labor so I decided to try another route.
I went through another domain site in hopes to transfer my blog content onto another site. After weeks of finagling the site to my perfection, the content was mysteriously gone. I couldn't fathom how or what could have happened that would lead all of my hard work to be in vain. However I realized that everything happened for a reason so I took it as a sign to return back to my original page.
I was then forced to go back to my roots, my original domain page for my blog. While I was in the process of editing my page, I continued to deal with doubt. I just did not think my page was good enough. I was not satisfied at all so I put everything at a halt! That's right! I stopped blogging! I allowed frustration to get the best of me and therefore made an emotional decision.
During those "blog-less" months, I felt like something was missing. I did not feel fulfilled and I felt like I was living a "safe" life; I was simply existing, not living.
As time went by, my mind began to reminisce about my blog and the many things I wanted to do with it. I tried to think about what was actually stopping me from doing the things that my heart desired and the feeling of guilt came over me. I felt guilty because I was not using the gift that God gave to me. Even with the lack of confidence I had, I knew that it was not an excuse for me to stop blogging.
It took about 3 church services and a being at random places hearing Psalm 1:3 being preached: "And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf shall not wither; and whatsoever he doeth shall prosper". Now if that isn't a sign, I don't know what is!
That was a wake up call. I had to get out of my feelings because I may have doubt BUT God has confidence in me! I must add that whatever God puts his hands on, it will prosper; it HAS to!
So here I am!
I am back y'all!
Hungry to live out my purpose to empower and inspire people to be the BEST version of themselves.
If anyone is running away from their purpose, I hope you get tired enough to stop! Run towards your calling and trust me that emptiness that you secretly feel, WILL be fulfilled!